Archive for November, 2013

What’s Called “Christian” Isn’t Always Christian! BEWARE!

I am amazed just how many people today think that just because certain music is labeled as “Christian“, that it must AUTOMATICALLY be good. But that personally can’t be further from the truth!

Here are just a few, sad examples of what modern day “Christian music” entails:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIcrgRMogP8 [Christian metal]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIbkTH1b1gU [Christian electro]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l18KIdZ_pDc [Christian rock]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73rjIq8UoEk [Christian rap]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m3o8tjegpI8 [Christian rock]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OAP51A4g5m8 [Christian country/pop]

Compare all those modern day examples with music that might’ve been traditional around the time of Jesus Christ

Christian Berdahl’s music seminar drives home the point I want to make on this:

Not to mention that pastor JD Farag gives an EXCELLENT presentation on the subject:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T9d45_rO2bs&list=PL48B6C4A6FF0FEC56  Part 1 [watch from 3:12 and on]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=880cC2_rWBs&list=PL48B6C4A6FF0FEC56 Part 2 [watch from 2:10 and on]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZmQtH4Yfzo4&list=PL48B6C4A6FF0FEC56  Part 3 [watch from 2:36 and on]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8uWLMfk3nDc&list=PL48B6C4A6FF0FEC56  Part 4 [watch from 2:30 and on]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkdHUfnZ3Ss&list=PL48B6C4A6FF0FEC56  Part 5 [watch ALL of it]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ghhibj2vD1I&list=PL48B6C4A6FF0FEC56  Part 6 [watch ALL of it]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GKMTE6AXjII Part 7 [watch ALL of it, but specifically focus around 1:30]

Plus walk into just about ANY church worship today and you won’t find the true spirit of God anywhere NEAR! For Satan has now taken over today’s Christian music and today’s Christian churches. Just look at the number of today’s Christian churches who now OPENLY SUPPORT GAY MARRIAGE and/or have OPENLY GAY CLERGY/PASTORS!

I even most recently had an experience where I walked into a local Lutheran church and had the shock of my LIFE! Not only did they entrust a 7-10 year old boy in a suit to take care of the “offering plate”, who seemed to scowl with disgust at anyone not putting money in it, but the pastor noted that the money wasn’t EVEN counted/accounted for (from what I understand of it), they barely mentioned the name of Jesus Christ AT ALL, sung hymns for a good 45 minutes, had people dressed to the nines, had a HUGE idolatrous statue of Jesus by the altar and (GASP!) had something written at the very bottom of their worship literature which stated “glory be to the Roman Catholic Church” or something of the like. I was HORRIFIED! And I’ve never stepped foot back inside that church ever, EVER again!

But then it finally occurred to me. It wasn’t just the Lutheran church or the Methodist church or the Baptist church etc., that had gone astray. But in fact, practically ALL the local churches here where I live have gone astray. Why? Because first of all, they were all worshipping on SUNDAY, which is the WRONG SABBATH! [The bible says the Sabbath is the SEVENTH day of the week, NOT the FIRST DAY of the week!] And secondly, all they seemed to care about were money, appearances, church budgets, who’s donating the most to charity, ways to RAISE more money for the church, and numbers. Not ONE person I saw ever gave their testimony of how they came to faith in Jesus Christ or even seemed to give a care in the world about me or why I was even there. In fact, Jesus Christ was barely even mentioned at all. Not to mention that I didn’t feel spiritually alive while attending any of their sermons. In fact, I felt quite dead on the inside.

Many Christians (and even non-Christians alike) seem to think that “being a true Christian” means going to church every Sunday and also that ANY music or object labeled as Christian is OK. But that couldn’t be further from the truth! God is not confined to a building or 4 walls. Many pastors and church people think that having a beautiful “building” will somehow glorify God and glorify their particular church. But they are only fooling themselves. For God searches the hearts and minds of ALL people. God cares more about what they are doing to serve HIM, rather than what they are doing to serve themselves or fellow man/popular culture!

So that begs of question, then…….what IS true Christian music and what IS a “true Christian?” and/or a true Christian church?

Answer A: TRUE Christian music comes from the soul. It is whatever music calms our minds and spirit and INSPIRES us to worship and serve God/Jesus Christ. Can someone truly say that Christian metal (which sounds no different from secular metal) or that Christian rap or electro music calms their spirit and truly INSPIRES them to worship/serve God/Jesus Christ?

Answer B: A TRUE Christian is one that reads the bible (front to back), takes it to 100% heart and actually believes and does what it says. For example, a person can’t just believe in the 10 commandments, the Oliviet Discourse/Sermon On The Mount and the Old & New Testament teachings about the Sabbath, etc. A person must actively KEEP THEM. For Jesus Christ said in the bible “if you love me, you will obey my commandments”. They will REPENT of their sins and realize their NEED for a Savior (Jesus Christ). They will also practice what they preach. For example, if they say people should give to the poor, then they will do likewise. They will also be wise as a serpent but gentle as a dove. They will strive to live their lives as close to the “ideal” as possible that Jesus Christ set for his followers in the bible. They will be slow to anger and quick to love. They will care more about what Jesus Christ thinks of them than what the world/popular culture/other people think of them. Etc.

Answer C: A TRUE Christian church is a small fellowship of believers who not only READ the bible front to back but that take it to 100% heart. So in other words, a TRUE Christian church would make the SEVENTH DAY (Saturday) the SABBATH, and NOT the First day of the week (Sunday). Plus they would also (in general) NOT partake in Pagan/Pagan Originated Holidays such as New Year’s, Valentine’s Day, Easter, Halloween, Birthdays and Christmas and WOULD partake of the Lord’s Seven Annual Holidays (which the Lord’s people will STILL be celebrating, even during the time of the Millennial Kingdom – specifically the Feast of Tabernacles).

And no, I’m honestly not sure HOW ancient biblical peoples kept track of their age and what not. They didn’t celebrate birthdays more than likely, since the bible would’ve likely mentioned it if they had. But they had to’ve done SOMETHING to keep diligent track of how old people were back then and I’m not sure what that “something” is. If anyone ever finds the answer, let me know.

But I ask you this: the next time you or your church celebrate a holiday, ask yourself if that holiday is really, truly of God/Jesus Christ or not and rather or not the bible truly commands you to celebrate such holidays. If not, then it would be wise to not celebrate them and focus on worshipping Jesus Christ, instead (the one you SHOULD be worshipping if you are a true Christian).

And when you listen to “Christian” music or videos on Youtube or read “Christian” magazine articles or blogs, or watch “Christian” movies on Netflix, etc., ask yourself if that music, video, book, article, blog is truly “biblical” or not. Because believe it or not, there are many things in Christian movies that actually go AGAINST the bible. One example of this is in the movie called “Jesus: The Greatest Story Ever Told”, starring Jeremy Sisto as Jesus. There are SEVERAL biblical inaccuracies, as follows:

1). John the Baptist tells Jesus to repent of his sins. This is an abomination! For Jesus Christ HAD no sin!

2). Mother Mary had to prompt Jesus to go out into the world and “find his way”. This is wrong! Jesus Christ knew who he was from the beginning and needed no “prompting” on anyone’s part, for example, when he stayed in the heavenly Father’s house (the temple) when he was only 12 years old!

3). When father Joseph dies, Jesus gets angry and yells at God, demanding Him to bring Joseph back to life. The real Jesus would NEVER do that. He said from the beginning that everything he did was not his will, but the will of the Father in Heaven. 

4). Instead of Jesus going out to greet/collect the first of his two disciples while they were fishing on the boat, the 2 disciples first come to HIM!

5). When confronted by a Gentile woman begging for help, Jesus (Jeremy Sisto) says : “this woman has taught me that my message is for the Gentiles, too” [Jesus Christ is the Lord and he NEEDS no teaching from ANY “human”!]

6). He has a romantic interest in Mary (sister of Martha) & considers marrying her [Jesus doesn’t lust!]

7). He has no siblings [a nod to the Catholic church, that claims that Mary was a perpetual virgin, even though the bible says that JESUS HAD BROTHERS AND SISTERS!]

8). He is baptized in knee-deep water with SPRINKLING, instead of FULL IMMERSION!

9). A crippled man he healed had to be helped to walk afterwards due to his atrophied muscles still being weak and painful.

10). Instead of Jesus being on the boat WITH the disciples DURING the time of the STORM, the movie shows Jesus (Jeremy Sisto) out in the middle of the ocean [during the time of the storm] walking TOWARDS the boat.

And I’m sure there’s probably more, but the for sake of space, I will just cover those 10, for now. But the point I want to try to make is that what is called “Christian” isn’t always, truly Christian. You can’t mix truth with lies! Therefore, I’m sad to say that the movie Jesus: The Greatest Story Ever Told is a lie! It depicts a human, non-divine Jesus. I mean, even just looking at the video cover makes me CRINGE! It shows the actor who portrayed Jesus with his robe a little down and his chest showing, AS IF to subconsciously advertize him as some sort of “sex symbol!”

Actually, my best advice to you all is NOT to watch “Jesus movies”. Because the one I just mentioned up above is only a slew of MANY biblically inaccurate movies out there! And the producers/directors want to cry out “right of creative film-making” but the truth is, you can’t exchange the true, biblical truth of Jesus for a lie!

I pray that ALL who read this will further think about what type of reading, blogs, movies, music, tv they let into their hearts, minds and homes, and do away  with the things that aren’t pleasing to the Lord Yeshua/Jesus Christ and that all Christian movie/music producers will STOP making biblically inaccurate music and movies and start making TRUE, biblical music and movies, based 100% from the bible, word for word, King James Version. Amen.

 

Attributing Satan’s Attributes to God and Vice Versa

http://www.lifesitenews.com/news/abortion-facility-owner-i-feel-like-god-wants-me-to-do-this-job/

After reading the following article this morning, I was APPALLED to think that such “thinking” seems to be prevalent in today’s world and today’s American “secular” society.

It would seem that this woman (and others like her) are attributing Satan’s attributes to God. And we know from reading the bible that the God of Abraham, Moses, Isaac and Jacob would NEVER advocate the killing of innocent babies.

And then there’s the following webpage of testimonials where many people are attributing God’s attributes (love, patience, kindness, forgiveness) to Satan. Many people these days go public when they have a near death experience involving Jesus Christ but yet, I have yet to hear of even ONE case of a person going public or on live TV talking about how “great” Satan is or how “Satan” saved them from death, etc.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/TESTIMONIAL.html

Plus I’ve also known a Catholic whom most recently claimed to me that God (as in, God of the bible) told them to join the Catholic Church! And this couldn’t be further from the truth! Nearly every single thing the Catholics believe or practice actually goes AGAINST the bible! [Therefore, whatever told my friend to become “Catholic” wasn’t God but Satan!]

For example, here are just 4 of the Catholics’ main teachings that go AGAINST the bible (and there’s many, many more, but for the sake of space, I will just focus on the 4, for right now).

1). Catholics believe that Mary is a mediator between God and Man.

“Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved” Acts 4:12

2). Catholics believe that it’s OK to bow down to idols and worship saints. But Ezekial 20: 3-5 states otherwise:

3 “Thou shalt have no other gods before me”.

4 “Thou shall not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth”.

5 “Thou shall not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the Lord thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me” 

3). Catholics believe that we are to call the priest “Father” and that all need to “pray the rosary”.

“Do not call anyone on Earth your father, for One is your father, He who is in heaven” Matthew 23:9

“But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do: for they think they will be heard for their much speaking” Matthew 6:7

Historical note: Roman Catholics borrowed the idea of praying with beads from the pagan religions who were already using them hundreds of years before: In 456 AD, Hindus are thought  to have introduced the concept of praying with beads to the world. The earliest reference to a rosary (boberkhas) is in their “Jain Canon” (456 AD) These boberkhas had various numbers of beads 6,9,12,18,36 (any sub-multiple of 108). Islam (610 AD) uses a rosary of 99 beads, one for each of the names of God. Buddhists have 108 prayer beads on the string. The Rosary is of pagan origin and no Christian prior to 1000 AD used beads to pray. [Source: http://www.bible.ca/cath-overview-false-teaching.htm%5D

Yet others would STILL like to attribute Satan’s attributes to God in the Old Testament saying things like “the God of the Old Testament was a murderer” and the like. But look at the bigger picture. What type of people did God tell his servants to “slay” during the time of the Old Testament? Answer: evil people. People that themselves liked to murder, steal, commit heinous acts, etc. Therefore, if the God of the Old Testament was Satan himself (as some claim), then wouldn’t it make more rational sense for the Jews to be killed off in the OT, instead of the Babylonians, Sodomites, Egyptians, etc.? Think about it. Satan is all about “free will” and “live to excess” and that’s EXACTLY what those ancient Pagan peoples thought/did! The Jews, for the most part, did NOT! And when they did, they were PUNISHED!

Therefore, God (in alot of ways) is like a loving parent who blesses his obedient children and punishes the disobedient ones. Why? Because he’s a righteous, loving God and wants what’s best for his creation. Satan is the EXACT OPPOSITE! He wants to deceive, kill and destroy all of mankind!!! Thereby, it stands to reason: whomever takes God’s attributes and attributes them to Satan is committing BLASPHEMY (perhaps blasphemy of the Holy Spirit!) Likewise, whoever takes Satan’s attributes and attributes them to God is ALSO committing blasphemy (likely blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, also!) And we know from reading the bible that blasphemy of the Holy Spirit is the ONLY unforgiveable sin. Now, does that mean that someone who commits blasphemy of the Holy Spirit can’t be forgiven, even if they repented of it before their earthly death? I can’t say for 100% sure, I’ll let God be the judge on that one. But I can’t see WHO, in their right MINDS, after knowing the FULL REALITIES of ETERNAL condemnation in the fire, would EVER want to go there!

But I pray that ALL who see this message will be saved in the name of Jesus Christ and assured an eternal spot in his heavenly kingdom forever & ever. Amen.

 

Today’s U.S. Society & World Has Basically Gone To Crap!!!! ;(

As of December 5th, 2013, 1:50p.m. central time, I’m SO appalled by the things going on in today’s world, that I don’t even know where to begin.

The world I grew up in, back in the 1980s and early 90s was SO much different than how things are today. For example, we actually LEARNED about U.S. History and the Declaration of Independence in our schools. Plus we were actually allowed to say the line “one nation under God” in the Pledge of Allegiance and we were NEVER taught about “homosexual relationships” and the like. In fact, it never even came up in discussion.

We also never had people suing each other (as far as I know) for the most frivolous of reasons (such as, for theoretical example: “your dog gave me a bad scratch mark on my arm so now I’m going to sue you for thousands of dollars”, etc.). Plus the TV shows back then then were actually modest (for the most part) and “family-friendly” (for example, Growing Pains, ALF, Family Ties, Home Improvement, McGuyver, Family Matters, Who’s The Boss, Quantum Leap, Jeopardy, Wheel of Fortune, The Wonder Years, Saved By The Bell, etc.) And not only that but the shows were mostly CLEAN. They didn’t really promote cussing, drinking, drugs, teenage pregnancy, etc.

The TV shows we have TODAY that have replaced them are absolutely preposterous! Things such as Family Guy, Naked and Afraid, AMERICAN IDOL, Project Runway, The Secret Life of the American Teenager, America’s Top Model, Desperate Housewives, Pretty Little Liars, GREEK, Teen Mom, ELLEN, Charmed, Jersey Shore, Toddlers & Tiaras, SKINS (U.S. & Britain Versions), Queer As Folk, Queer Eye For the Straight Guy, Real Housewives of _____ (numerous variations), Here Comes Honey Boo Boo, Dance Moms, etc. Most of these shows don’t promote the value of the traditional family and many of them promote lying, promiscuity, sexuality, drinking, etc.

Teen Mom promotes sexuality, physical battery and teenage pregnancy (obviously) while SKINS and GREEK promote sexuality, atheism, partying and marijuana use, etc. But yet, all these shows are just a few very sad examples of what our “culture” has become today. And ditto about today’s movies. (Did anyone else, for example, find it absolutely sickening and beyond grotesque that a movie would actually PROMOTE hunting/killing/massacring humans [The Hunger Games]?)

And when ya look around, there’s SO many bad things happening in today’s world and people stand there wondering why. Answer: It is because we are a world, society and nation that has turned our backs on God/Jesus Christ Almighty. Sin runs RAMPANT in today’s world: music, movies, television, videogames, etc. do anything BUT glorify Jesus Christ. In fact, they do just the opposite: they mock Jesus Christ at EVERY single turn. Don’t believe me? Here are just a few, sad examples:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wagn8Wrmzuc

Lady Gaga “Judas” video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBKnjnysqVE

Lady Gaga “Alejandro” video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iu411Pf8Kb8

Kylie Minogue “All the Lovers” video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LrUvu1mlWco

Miley Cyrus “We Can’t Stop” video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=79fzeNUqQbQ

Madonna “Like A Prayer” video mocks God

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkPgYbdQ1kQ

Family Guy Mocks Jesus 1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkZ4Ui8izKk

Family Guy Mocks Jesus, part 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fQcvO2zuEw

Movie “Saved” mocks Jesus

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-S2lcmzrfY

Dante’s Inferno videogame mocks reality of God’s Judgement

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAI7hnO_LNs

Dante’s Inferno videogame ending mocks reality of God’s Judgement

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZFwJAUMZYak

Satanic Symbols in World of Warcraft

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEzbPptF7EM

Satanic/New Age Imagery in World of Warcraft

Not to mention that today’s young people, as a whole, are generally so full of themselves (not all, but most). Just look at any Facebook or Twitter posting that most young people (specifically, in the 13-37 age range) today are making. They are all about “themselves” and no-one else. We are living in the age of “Entitlement”. Go to Youtube and you will see people boasting about how many subscribers they have or asking people to please subscribe. Go to Facebook and you will see people competing with each other by how many Facebook friends they got or how many “likes” they get on something. Also go to any blog or WordPress site and you will see RAMPANT cursing and people “hating” on one another.

And then you have the case of online bullying (which tragically in some cases, leads to suicide):

http://www.cnn.com/2013/10/15/justice/rebecca-sedwick-bullying-death-arrests/

One of the most popular music videos of the 80s. The fact that most young people of today wouldn’t even be likely to figure out how this video is actually “mocking” God and not glorifying him illustrates just how far modern society has fallen away from God.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=79fzeNUqQbQ

And as we, as a nation, have fallen away from God, so have our morals. The following stories illustrate this:

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/newstopics/howaboutthat/7662232/Grandmother-and-grandson-to-have-child-together.html

Grandmother wants to have surrogate baby with her grandson

http://www.theweeklyvice.com/2012/09/judge-orders-fatherdaughter-couple-to.html

Judge orders father and daughter in New Zealand to end their incestuous relationship

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpQqwSaDa6A

During a school prank, students are blindfolded, and told they are making out with someone special (another student that  goes to their school), only to later find out they were making out with their own opposite sex parents! SICKENING! ;(

6-year old girls are dressed up in provocative get-up but what’s even more disturbing is how the people in the audience (most specifically the PARENTS, of all people) are actually CHEERING! How sick can a person or group of people GET????? 😦

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAczPRl0orI 2:01-2:15 of the movie trailer is ABSOLUTELY SICKENING and made my stomach churn! ;(

Not to mention there’s been a DRAMATIC increase in school shootings and random shootings in just the past 5 years alone!

And ditto about the U.S. Economy

http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-505123_162-57547173/how-our-national-debt-hurts-our-economy/

http://money.cnn.com/2012/10/11/news/economy/national-security-debt/

 

ETC.

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO THIS COUNTRY??????????? HAS THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD GONE MAD OR SOMETHING??????? 😦

 

How The Lord Saved Me From Suicide…..[UPDATED]

 

I’m very ashamed and embarrassed to admit this, but when I was around 19-21 years old, I had made around 5+ suicide attempts on my life. The reasons for my wanting to do so were varied but the number one reason I wanted to do it EACH individual time was because I had lost my faith/trust in Jesus Christ, falsely thought EACH time that Jesus Christ didn’t love me anymore, and was under MOST SEVERE DEMONIC OPPRESSION.

People seem to think that those who try to kill themselves are “stupid”, “foolish” or “weak” or what not but please BELIEVE ME when I say that WHEN a person attempts suicide, they feel as though they’re at the end of their rope and HAVE NO HOPE. Even CHRISTIAN PEOPLE who have strong faith can become suicidal (sometimes even REPEATEDLY suicidal – as was in my case) when they feel as though they’re all forgotten about by Jesus Christ, like Jesus Christ is no longer there in their lives or loves them anymore, when they began to feel as though they’re too “bad” to get into Paradise/Eternal kingdom of God, someday, etc.

But you’ve got to remember that Satan and his fellow fallen angels (DEMONS) are GREAT DECEIVERS. It all starts out SO SMALL, too. As in “man, I did REALLY, REALLY BAD on that test today” or “man, I’m such a loser” or the like. And then slowly over time, Satan and his demons try to go even further by putting the following FALSE THOUGHTS in one’s head:

“You’re ugly, you’re no good, you’re a loser, you’re never gonna amount to ANYTHING in life, you’ll never have kids/family of your own, no-one’s ever gonna want to marry you, Jesus Christ hates you, your name’s been permanently etched out of the Book of Life, hell awaits you, everybody hates you, nobody loves you, you’re stupid, you’re weak, everybody’s making fun of you and laughing at you behind your back, your life’s NEVER gonna get better, nobody will miss you/nobody will come to your funeral, Jesus Christ WILL forgive you if you kill yourself, you’re FAT, you’re HIDEOUS, everybody WANTS you to kill yourself, you’re dying of cancer, your Satanic-worshiping relative will go to eternal paradise someday and YOU won’t, it’s TOO LATE for you to be forgiven of your sins now, Jesus Christ will NEVER forgive all your sins, you’re such an IDIOT, YOU tried to kill yourself on more than one occasion, YOU made Jesus Christ CRY, etc.”

And even though most Christians KNOW in their heart of hearts that the false thoughts that Satan and his demons try to put into their minds, hearts, body and spirits are blatantly FALSE……..over time…….the thoughts become OVERPOWERING in their mind. And nothing they seem to say or do seems to “shut off” the thoughts. Some turn to the bible or to Jesus Christ and try to PRAY away their pain.

But then, they sometimes lose heart and lose their TRUST in Jesus Christ (and the fact that he has the power to change their lives around) when Satan and his demonoids RELENTLESSLY come at them with: “Oh, sure! Cry out to Jesus! He doesn’t give a *darn* about you or what happens in your life! Ah……He’s forgotten ALL about you, you poor fool! That’s why you’re in this mess in the first place! LOSER! LOSER! LOSER!” Yet OTHERS will try to turn to TV, music, movies, shopping, food and/or the internet to try to “drown out” their pain.

They began to relentlessly search for OTHER methods to try to drown out the pain and/or demonic influences trying to overtake them. Some turn to drinking or drugs to try to drown out those negative thoughts (which oddly, only manages to INCREASE the demons’ hold on their mind & spirit!) Others try listening to sad, depressing music, loud heavy metal, trance/new age to try to drown out the self-hatred/self-anger in their soul (which oddly, only seems to INCREASE IT!)

Sadly, listening to new age or heavy metal music actually invites demons to come into your mind, heart, body and spirit. Therefore, listening to “angry” heavy metal music or new age music doesn’t “help” the problem of negative thoughts (coming about from demonic oppression to the person), it only serves to EXACERBATE THEM. Yet others try to turn to Wicca/Witchcraft, thinking that The Craft will somehow help them gain control over their own lives………only to later realize that dabbling in Witchcraft has *damning consequences* to the mind, heart, body and spirit! (Once the demons are invited in, they very rarely go!!!!! Plus they make you do things you would NEVER normally do under normal circumstances. They become in COMPLETE CONTROL over you and your life becomes not your own anymore! Very scary, INDEED!)

Three separate times with the 19-21 years of age time-frame, I tried to smother myself, each attempt being months apart from the previous one. And EACH time, I was well within a single BREATH of my life, and I’d hear the sound of Jesus Christ sitting beside me on the couch/bed, BITTERLY BITTERLY BREAKING DOWN AND WEEPING and saying to me, “I know your apparent reasons for wanting to do this but WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF?”, and AS he said those words to me during each of the 3 separate attempts, he would POWERFULLY and AGGRESSIVELY (perhaps even ANGRILY?) grab the pillow away from me and THROW it across the room!

And each and every time, I would simply KNOW it was him, no doubt in my mind, whatsoever! And I’d break down and cry afterwards, each and every time and would be ever so grateful that he saved me. And things would be okay for awhile. But then the total SHAME & GUILT would come in and overtake me: “YOU tried to kill yourself more than once! YOU made Jesus CRY!” and I would start to HATE MYSELF all over again. It was such a vicious cycle.

I made 3 more meager attempts at suicide within that 19-21 years of age time-frame but NONE of those times worked out. Something always happened. Either somebody would distract me by making a phone call to me and telling me they were coming over to the house, or the pills I tried to O.D. on did nothing TO me or a violent t-storm kept me too distracted to concentrate on killing myself. So I kind’ve gave up on trying to kill myself after awhile. I thought: “what’s the point in trying to kill myself if the Lord won’t even let me die, anyways?” But at the same time, I was almost in a sense somewhat angry at the Lord for not letting me kill myself. I remember saying outloud: “Lord, why can’t you just let me die in peace? Can’t you see I’m in ALOT of pain? I’m in SO much pain these days that I can barely even BREATHE!”

One day, I just couldn’t take it anymore and got to my breaking point again. I decided I should just end it all and reasoned with myself that hell would probably feel “sensational” compared to the current pain I was under. So as I sat at the computer one night, I decided to humor myself a bit and went to the site http://www.suicide.com thinking that maybe it would tell me some good ways to try to off myself. [And remember, even though I was grateful for Jesus saving me from all PREVIOUS attempts, up until that point, I had felt SO MUCH SHAME AND GUILT for even wanting to attempt it in the first place……and for making him cry……and that shame and guilt felt BEYOND OVERPOWERING……..

So I went on the website and the very first image I saw on the screen was an animated image of a white candle being lit on the left hand side of the screen. I thought to myself “hhmm……that’s weird”. And then I noticed italicized words being typed across the page (left to right)…..as if being typed on a typewriter. They were “scrolling” across the page. The words were saying things like “Hi, I am here to help you. And before you do anything drastic, I want you to wait a bit. Wait 5 minutes, hear me out, just read what I have to say.  I thought “okay, I can do that, sounds reasonable enough”.

And as the words (in bold black italic Comic Sans? font) were being typed & scrolled across the page, I was astounded at what I was reading. My first assumption was “hhmm. must be a computer tech guy on the website or something”. But then I noticed the “person” typing messages to me across the webpage seemed “super human”, almost “angelic”, even. For this “person” seemed to be reading my every waking thought! And then scroll-typing it across the page! Things about me, that up until that point, I hadn’t told a SOUL! And there was NO way this “person” could’ve possibly known all that, save they being a holy, divine angel of the Lord!

So my first question was “who are you?” The angel tried to say that it wasn’t important and that he had a job to do. But I pestered and pestered the angel. Finally, the “angel” admitted that he was Michael! Once I discovered the true identity of the “person” typing across the page [as in, the archangel Michael], I gave him a VERY hard time by asking outloud “oh yeah? if the Lord’s so good, how come he makes me suffer with severe depression and severe social anxiety?” while also reminding him of just how ANGRY the Lord had gotten with me a week earlier after I accidentally mocked Jesus without meaning to but that even then, I didn’t think I was worthy of life, now and things like that. In short, I was trying to keep Michael there as long as possible.

He told me about the realities of and just how HOT the fires of hell and the lake of fire are. He described it to me like this: “light a flame from a small lighter” (commanding me to do this literally, saying he’d wait for me until I did so). “Now hold your finger and/or hand over the flame. FEEL THE INTENSITY of that flame and how hot it is!” (Again, waiting for me until I did just that). Then he continued…..

“Now imagine a flame that’s 10,000 times hotter than the flame being placed under your hand now and that is just a small TASTE of what the fire of hell is like. And someday, the fires of hell are gonna MERGE INTO what’s called the lake of fire. The lake of fire is 1,000,000,000 times hotter than the fires of hell. And all those who don’t put their faith, trust and love into Lord Jesus will burn in the lake of fire for ETERNITY. Is that what you want? he asked.

I had to admit that no, that’s not what I wanted, that’s not what I wanted AT ALL. In fact, NONE of those times did I really want to die, I just wanted the pain the end. Michael reminded me JUST HOW LUCKY I was that the Lord Jesus cared SO much about me, that he wouldn’t let me die and go to hell any of those times. Michael reminded me that had Jesus Christ truly wanted to, he could’ve just let me die and sent me straight to hell…….the very same hell that Michael was describing to me across the webpage! [moments earlier]

At the conclusion of our discussion, (me speaking outloud or thinking to myself) and Michael responding to my thoughts and questions through his scrolling words across the webpage, he told me he had to quickly leave because he had another job to do (another suicide he must try to prevent), but made me promise I wouldn’t harm myself that night or the next couple nights to come.

I promised him I wouldn’t. Then I shut down my browser and completely turned off my computer. Afterall, Michael’s mission in the name of the Lord [atleast as far as “I” was concerned] had already been accomplished, or so I thought.

Right after I shut down my computer, I heard a soft whispering voice behind me say “look up at your blank monitor screen, hurry, you don’t want to miss it”. So I looked up at my blank monitor screen and across my blank, completely turned-off monitor screen were the scrolling words (from right to left) in light blue italic [what looked like 36pt or so Trebuchet MS] font: “The Lord Bless You and Keep You. Amen”. And then, just like that, the archangel Michael was gone, on to the next big assignment of trying to save yet ANOTHER poor soul from suicide, as he had just told me moments earlier before his telling me to look up at the blank computer screen.

And I just sat there, staring at my blank computer screen for quite some time, even going so far as to tenderly rub my hand across the blank computer monitor screen, pondering what had just happened. It was nothing short of a miracle! [YET AGAIN, in my life!] I broke down and cried! And just stared at that blank computer screen for HOURS. [Next to the day I met Jesus Christ in person near the age of 2, and next to the previous 3 times Jesus miraculously saved me from suicide, I had never felt so LOVED, CHERISHED and VALUED!)

I guess the point I’m trying to make is that ALL failed suicide attempts in one’s life are A TRUE GIFT FROM THE LORD ABOVE! (No one suicide attempt – if successful – is worth an eternity in hell/the lake of fire!!!!!). And the point I want to try to make is THIS: Just because the Lord Jesus Christ repeatedly saved ME or other people from suicide does NOT mean that he’s going to automatically save EVERYONE from suicide. And life is a gamble. Ya never know if you’d end up being one of the ones he prevented from suicide or if you’ll be one of the ones that he allows to go ahead and die.

THEREFORE, DON’T TRY TO KILL YOURSELVES, PEOPLE! Life is worth living! Talk to a trusted friend, family member, counselor, etc. if you’re feeling depressed! Do NOT keep it all bottled up inside! And if anyone close to you TELLS you to go kill yourself, DON’T LISTEN TO THEM! For Satan has many faces! And remember, Satan WANTS you to kill yourself so you’ll go to the flames FOR ETERNITY! But Jesus Christ does NOT want you to kill yourself! Jesus Christ WANTS you to live so that you can hopefully someday join him in Eternal Paradise! Jesus Christ CARES! 😉 And he loves you more than you could ever imagine, MARK MY WORDS! 😉

I pray that ALL souls who read this will be SAVED from suicide and severe depressive thoughts, now and for eternity. Amen.

P.S.: If you’re severely depressed and need someone to talk to, please write to: pray_to_Jesus@yahoo.com