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IMPORTANT: What Jesus WANTS For *Godly Relationships!*

For those who don’t yet know my testimony or my story, I’ll give a brief overview here:

I had met Jesus personally during a couple of near-death experiences (one at around 23 months of age and another at just 14 years old). And at age 19, I knew who Jesus was. I had a huge children’s illustrated bible at my disposal (shortly after near-death experience #1), as well as the “official” KJV version I took from a ski resort condo when I was 15.

But at age 19-20, I still had NO IDEA what a “Christian” even WAS, the full extent to WHAT Jesus had done for mankind on the cross, or about any of the “meanings” of the words (“grace”, “born again”, “salvation”, etc.) of what I was reading in the “official” version of the KJV bible I was reading. I was really struggling to understand what it all meant. Well, one day in the mail, I got a invitation to a play (put on by a church) called: “Heaven’s Gate and Hell’s Flames”.

At first, I didn’t want to go. I thought I’d feel like the odd one out compared to all the people who’d been going to church their whole lives! However, after some grappling with the Lord over it, (i.e. remember when Moses got nervous about being the spokesman of Israel?) I decided to bite the bullet and take a chance and go, anyways! Well, I’m glad I did! First of all, I guy I had gone to High-School with had played the part of one of the angels! So hey, atleast I knew SOMEONE there, right?

And after the play, they handed out some FREE literature (Specifically, a small, brand-new pocket-sized “God’s Word: New Testament & Psalms). They told me to read it, look over it and then call them if I had any questions about what I was reading. They also assigned to me something called a “prayer accountability partner”, even though I didn’t really know what that meant at the time. And even though I was grateful for the FREE play and FREE literature, I was still somewhat hesitant about “attending church”. I just felt OVERWHELMED!

So I didn’t end up becoming a member of that church. Instead, I thanked them for the free bible and begun to read that God’s Word translation from cover to cover at home, in my own free time. But what really got me were the very first introductory pages! They just explained things to me SO WELL! Plus they even put the most important things IN BOLD! I knew that Jesus had some wonderful things in store for me by having them give me that easy-to-understand version of the New Testament! It’s just exactly what I needed at that time!

And as I begin to read and pour over the pages, I FINALLY began to understand what all those “words” meant (i.e. “grace”, “born again”, “salvation”), about what Jesus did, about how we’re all sinners and about how ONLY Jesus can save us from our sins! And so once I felt I had a firm grasp and understanding on THAT God’s Word translation, I quickly decided I was then gonna read the “official” King James Version, cover to cover, no matter how long it took!

(Please keep in mind that I had NO job at this point, had broken up with my S.O. AND had gotten kicked out of college! I was living off of savings/credit cards at that point. So for 8 months straight, that’s how Jesus orchestrated that time in my life so that it was just me and Him at that time! And what a wonderful BLESSING that turned out to be! Jesus was giving me a break from EVERYTHING and EVERYONE so that I could PEACEFULLY learn more about HIM and HIS GOSPEL!)

I understood most of everything I had read and was “amazed” at all the “love stories” (Boaz and Ruth, Jacob and Rachel, Isaac and Rebekah) that I had read! And I was young and filled with promise! I thought: “Hey, if it could happen to these folks in the bible, it can happen to ME, too!” I had this idea or picture in my mind that I’d meet my spouse by the age of 25, have kids by 30, and have a house by 35! In fact, don’t we ALL have pre-conceived notions in our mind like that?

So even though I had the KNOWLEDGE of Jesus and his gospel by age 21, I didn’t quite yet have the FAITH in Jesus that’s required! And so, for many years afterwards, that LACK OF FAITH in Jesus (concerning my love-life and considering other areas of my life) did me some SERIOUS HARM!

In fact, I was “mad at Jesus” for not bringing me a spouse for such a long, long time! I’m ashamed to even type this across the page but my “thoughts” for a LONG time concerning my love-life were the following: Jesus, you bring EVERYONE ELSE a spouse but not ME! Why? What’s wrong with ME? What are you punishing ME for? What wrong have “I” done against thee? Why am “I” not so-called deserving of a spouse but yet, other people seemingly ARE? Those people don’t even worship you AT ALL and they got a spouse before me! Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Tell me WHY!!!!???” 

I ended up not only being angry and bitter for MANY YEARS towards a few people that had majorly hurt me in my life but I also later ended up in FOUR consecutive abusive relationships! (Note: I had gotten so tired of “waiting on God” at that particular point in my life that I decided to “take matters into my own hands”).

Though none of them were physically abusive (I atleast got lucky in THAT regard), they were all emotionally, psychologically, mentally and SPIRITUALLY ABUSIVE! They CUT AWAY at my self-esteem, made me doubt myself, somewhat made me doubt God/Jesus, tampered with my faith, got me feeling VERY hopeless and depressed and ALMOST completely RUINED ME as a Christian! 

I had SO MUCH HATE in my heart towards the individuals who hurt me. “How could they?” I thought: “Jesus, how could you ALLOW that to happen to me at the hands of these people? Don’t you care about me AT ALL, Jesus? I was in this bitter, bitter place of anger, hurt, resentment, restlessness and mental/emotional ANGUISH! I was TORMENTED by the angered hatred I felt for those those individuals!

Odd thing is, I didn’t even really WANT to hate those individuals but my PRIDE got in the way of that! Even when Jesus gently said to me in my spirit: Told ya so! You should’ve listened to me and done things MY way, instead of your OWN way”, I was STILL stubborn about it. “But you don’t understand, Lord! You don’t understand what it’s like to be ME!” And the Lord seemed to say to me in my spirit, in response: “I CREATED you! I know you better than you even know YOURSELF!” 

It wasn’t really until I was about 30 years old or so that Jesus began to “soften” my heart towards the individuals who had hurt me and I began to see how my hate and resentment was EATING AWAY AT ME ON THE INSIDE! The Holy Spirit even revealed to me that my “hate” was eating away at MY SOUL! Wow! What a powerful, convicting description!

Eventually, I surrendered all that hurt, anger, fear, resentment to Jesus. I prayed: “Jesus, I don’t WANT to hate or resent anymore, it’s already taken SO MUCH from me! I WANT to be able to FORGIVE, so please HELP ME to FORGIVE and MOVE ON, as I know I can’t do it alone……only WITH your divine help, Lord!

And ya know what? Jesus IS faithful and true! He DID help me to forgive them. He pointed out SEVERAL things to me. First of all, he informed me that the people who hurt me were themselves hurting on the inside. Secondly, they didn’t even fully consciously realize how much they had hurt me. Thirdly, Jesus wanted me to know that it wasn’t my fault and that their OWN healing would ALSO someday come about BY my forgiving them! Wow! Such powerful words of wisdom!

And AS I forgave them [Jesus had me starting out by writing “forgiveness letters” to each person who had hurt me – though I had never hand-delivered the letters to them personally], I felt SO MUCH BAGGAGE lift OFF of me and my SPIRIT! I felt FREE for the first time in a VERY long time! My SOUL felt FREE! I felt PEACE! I felt LOVE! I felt JOY! I felt CONTENTMENT!

I no longer had “heart palpitations” or “anxiety attacks!” It was like a HUGE ANCHOR had been LIFTED off of me! I no longer felt “weighed down” by anger and hate! In fact, I was the happiest I had ever been! In fact, people started to notice. The relationships with the people who had hurt me began to DRASTICALLY improve! It was nothing short of a MIRACLE! (This was when I was around age 34 or so, I believe?)

However, even at 34, there was still alot of “spiritual work” to be done! Because at THAT point in my life, I STILL had no idea about the TRUTH about church history, the Judeo roots of Christianity, etc. I would learn all of that later (like, age 36 or so). It’s funny how the Lord reveals things to me in “stages”. Sometimes, I wish he’d reveal things to me all at once, but that’s a different post for a different day! 😉 Jesus has also (in the last several months) helped me to soften my heart towards HIMSELF, concerning certain things in my life! 

Okay, now fast forward to today. Even though I’ve been a Christian for about 20 years now, I’ve only most recently learned what Jesus expects for a GODLY RELATIONSHIP (be it a relationship, a friendship, a marriage, etc.) And what I learned in the series just BLEW ME AWAY! Wow! How had I not ever seen this before? And then I got to thinking. How many OTHERS out there have not seen this before? Probably SEVERAL

I’ve most recently viewed an 8-part series and a powerful one-hour+ sermon on the matter. And ALL of them were eye-opening! And ALL of them ask the same questions: “Am I seeking a spouse with the RIGHT spiritual mind, heart and attitude before God? If not, why? If so, is it GOD’S time for me to have a spouse yet? If not, am I willing to wait on God instead of giving in to my own selfish desires? And if already married, am I bringing Christ INTO the marriage?” 

I will embed all the videos down below. [NOTE: PLEASE GET OUT A PEN AND PAPER AND TAKE LOTS OF NOTES!!!!!] I pray and hope that these will help you and enlighten you as much as they helped and enlightened ME! 😉 The first video is entitled “5 Keys To Identifying Your SoulMate” by Toure Roberts in L.A. and the next SEVERAL videos are the 8-PART series by Michael Todd from Transformation Church in Tulsa, Oklahoma!

As Soon As One Starts To “Question” God/The Bible, The Devil Has Won!

The bible says that in the Last Days, there would be “scoffers” and many of those who “question its authority/authenticity”. Some of the most often-heard quotes are:

  • “Does the bible REALLY say that homosexuality/homosexual living is a sin?”
  • “Does the bible REALLY say that full-water immersion baptism is required?”
  • “Does the bible REALLY say that ALL people who aren’t written in the Lamb’s Book Of Life go Hell/Lake of Fire/Eternal Destruction?”
  • “Does the bible HONESTLY condemn pre-marital sex as sin?”
  • “Do I I REALLY have to love my neighbor as myself?”
  • “Is it TRULY necessary to forgive those who have hurt me?”
  • “Are celebrating the Lord’s BIBLICAL holidays and BIBLICAL 7th-Day Sabbath TRULY REQUIRED by the Lord?”
  • “Is celebrating today’s “Paganized Christian” holidays REALLY an “abomination” unto the Lord?”

But see, that’s how the Devil operates! He tries to get us to DOUBT the Lord’s “authority” and the Lord’s “wrath” towards ALL things considered as sin/unrighteousness.

Many in today’s “culture” will say things like, “Yeah well, WHO is to say what’s considered righteous or not? WHO gets to be the judge?” But both of those questions have ALREADY been answered in the bible, quite honestly! The Lord Jesus himself created and made all things, HE determines what’s righteous or not, and HE and HE alone, is “the righteous judge” of ALL of mankind!

Just think for a moment. If you were the creator of a distinct piece of “art”, for example, you’d OWN that “art”, you’d have all the “bragging rights” of that “art”, and you and you alone (as the owner and creator of “said art”), would be able to be the “righteous judge” of that “art” and would get to decide what was good or bad about it and FOR it, right? So it is with Almighty God!

But therein lies the problem: AS SOON AS we start to “question the authority” of either the bible AND/OR Yeshua/Jesus Christ, we’re ALREADY being deceived by the Devil, in that very moment of “questioning!” Because remember that Satan’s goal is to steal, kill and destroy! And his NUMBER ONE GOAL is to UNDERMINE THE AUTHORITY OF GOD/YESHUA/JESUS CHRIST AND THE BIBLE!

Basically, Satan the Devil doesn’t really care in WHAT way/ways he does that, just so long AS he does it! When a child of God believes every word of the bible, Satan gets really, really angry and frustrated and so, has to try to find subtle ways to try to GET that child of God to “question the bible”, “question Jesus” and more or less to “question everything”.

And one of his MOST POPULAR techniques for doing this is to focus on things such as THESE:

  • “So……only the RIGHTEOUS are gonna be saved while the unrighteous will be condemned and burned for eternity…….hhhmm……sounds “loving”……..how “loving” of the Most High to burn certain people alive for eternity……Is that TRULY loving? Would a true, LOVING God send people to Hell? Hhhmm……guess the Lord of the bible isn’t so loving afterall, is he?”
  • “You say or claim that Jesus is a LOVING God…….Okay then, why did he make you go through all of that hell in your life, then? Perhaps he’s forgotten about you down here or doesn’t like you so much, afterall!”
  • “Look at all the evil/unrighteous things you’ve done in your life! There’s NO WAY Jesus could ever forgive you for that!”
  • “Oh, sure! Go ahead and read your bible and pray! The Lord is ANGRY with you, beyond compare and nothing you say or do will change that!”
  • “The Lord’s gonna condemn you someday, you can COUNT on it!”
  • “Oh, sure! Go ahead and preach the gospel of Salvation to people or try to! Nobody’s gonna listen to you, anyways!”
  • “Is the Lord Jesus REALLY gonna send good-natured Catholics, Mormons, Muslims, Buddhists, Hindus, non-believers and Jews to hell? Certainly he’ll judge them by their good-natured “hearts” and not their “religions”, right?”
  • “The Lord’s NOT REALLY gonna send people to hell……it’s just a scare-tactic, is all!”

Do you see where I’m going with this, folks? But then again, it’s not just the children of God that he tries to work against, it’s EVERYONE! Rather people realize this fact or not! For NOT ONLY does Satan fight against people who WON’T submit to him in any way (think biblical-roots Christians/Messianic Jews, for example) but also against those that DO (Muslims, Catholics, Mormons, Satanists, Paganized Christians, Hindus, Buddhists, etc.) How? He tries to undermine the Word of God/image of God to EVERYONE (Christian and non-Christian ALIKE!)

One of the most popular misconceptions floating around out there in modern-day “Christiandom” is that “Satan will never fight against someone who’s already his!” (spiritually speaking) and that’s a LIE! I’m gonna tell you why…….look at all the Satanic and/or Luciferian movie stars who get hooked on drugs and die young/etc.! You think Satan and his demons weren’t actively spiritually/mentally fighting against that person ALL ALONG FROM THE GET-GO, behind the scenes? THINK AGAIN, FOLKS!

Because truth be told, Satan fights JUST AS MUCH against Satanists/Wiccans/Pagans as he does any OTHER human group, including Christians! The brutal reality is that ALL OF HUMANITY is being battled against by Satan! There’s not ONE single human sole on this ENTIRE PLANET that’s not somehow being spiritually battled against by Satan, rather people realize that or not!

In fact, think back to the time you were a little kid and you felt “tempted” to lie or steal candy from the candy store, etc.? Even if you didn’t grow up in a “Christian home”…….or perhaps a time in the modern age when you ever felt “tempted” (even “minorly tempted” – even if you only felt “tempted” JUST ONCE) to cheat on your significant other….. You think Satan and his demons DIDN’T have something to do with that? OPEN YOUR EYES, PEOPLE!

The brutal reality is that SATAN HATES MANKIND! Not just “SOME” of mankind, mind you, but ALL of mankind! Why? Because humans are made in the image of Almighty God! And it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out that Satan HATES God’s image! And anything having to DO with “God’s image” (unborn babies in the womb and/or one man/one woman marriage, in which NATURAL PROCREATION occurs!)

Which brings to my mind the gay/transgender movement/argument. Transgenders will oftentimes say, “I feel like a girl trapped in a boy’s body” or “I feel like a man trapped in a woman’s body”, etc. But tell me! Since when do “FEELINGS” dictate natural God-given BIOLOGY? If a person “felt” like a horse, should we allow them surgery to “become a horse?”

Certainly you will see the total ridiculous in the “transgender argument”. Plus you will ALSO see that believing one is something that goes AGAINST one’s natural God-given biology is more like a MENTAL ILLNESS. And surely, digging a little deeper, you will also start to see that ALL mental illnesses are DEMONICALLY INDUCED! Now, there’s a total difference between DEMONIC POSSESSION and DEMONIC OPPRESSION!

[DEMONIC POSSESSION is where a person is COMPLETELY taken over by demons and forced to do their will, while DEMONIC OPPRESSION is where a person is only PARTIALLY taken over by demonic spirits (in their minds) and aren’t yet FULLY POSSESSED]. Therefore, when a demonically oppressed “transgender” person gets sex-change surgery, they THEN become demonically possessed BY the demon spirits that were originally “spiritually oppressing them” TO BEGIN WITH! Make sense?

Satan UTILIZES the gay/transgender argument to further his agenda of “undermining the Word of God”. And who or what is the Word of God? I’m glad you asked! The Word of God is JESUS CHRIST HIMSELF! And the bible is the WRITTEN WORD OF GOD! Just like we humans are made in the IMAGE OF GOD! That’s not to say that WE are gods! That’s ONLY to say that we were made in God’s image! And Satan hates the image of God SO MUCH, that he’s willing to do anything to try to destroy it! And the gay/transgender movement is precisely one of the main ways he does that!

People think the gay/transgender movement is all about “gay/trans rights”. But what it REALLY is, at its VERY CORE, is a movement to UNDERMINE THE WORD OF GOD **AND** TO DESTROY THE IMAGE OF GOD! [The image of God being a biologically-born man and a biologically-born woman in a TRADITIONAL MARRIAGE and any children they NATURALLY produce!]

That’s why Satan loves gay marriage and “gay adoption” so much! BECAUSE IT UNDERMINES THE IMAGE OF GOD! (Hint: It’s got absolutely NOTHING to do with “rights”…….the only “rights” the “movement” is trying to procure is “THE RIGHT TO SIN” and the “RIGHT TO STAMP OUT THE BIBLE/CHRISTIAN WITNESSING ON THE SIN OF HOMOSEXUALITY”. That’s ALL it really is, folks! WAKE UP!)

The only way that Satan can get a person (or in some cases, an entire “church”) to defy the IMAGE of God, is to UNDERMINE the WORD OF GOD! And the only way Satan can undermine the Word of God (Yeshua/Jesus Christ) is to destroy the Image of God! Do you see now how those two things work hand in hand together, in Satan’s master scheme of things?

Here’s the several ways Satan utilized to try to permanently destroy the Word of God AND the Image of God:

  1. The Gay/Transgender Movement
  2. World Religions
  3. Global Government (U.N., etc.)
  4. Media & Entertainment Industry
  5. “Newer bible translations” (NIV, ESV, etc.)
  6. Church denominations and SECTS (certainly they can’t ALL be right, correct?)
  7. The Roman Catholic Church
  8. Atheism/Satanism/Wicca/New Age Movement
  9. Etc.

But I ask you and leave you with THIS: The last time you felt yourself “questioning something” from the bible (as in, questioning the AUTHORITY of the bible on a certain subject), what was it that led you to question it? Was it someone’s video on Youtube? A movie? A pastor? A friend/family member/coworker? A book or news article?

What was it SPECIFICALLY that led you to start “questioning the bible’s authority on something?” Because any thing or person that leads you to “question the authority” on anything in the bible (and I do mean ANYTHING – Old OR New Testament) is NOT OF GOD! So remember that.

The next time you find yourself “questioning the bible” and its authority on something, ask yourself if that “questioning” is biblical. And if it’s not, please pray the following prayer:

“Almighty Yeshua/Jesus, please reveal to me specifically what it was that led me to question your word in the bible. And once you reveal that thing/person to me, please help me to remain strong and true to your word in the bible. Please protect me from questioning your word, ever, ever again. Amen”. 

When Guilt & Shame Feel OVERWHELMING!

As a Christian, I know FIRSTHAND what it’s like to feel like nothing we ever say or do will be “good enough” for God/Jesus Christ. And it’s an OVERWHELMING feeling, isn’t it? Upon reading the bible and “spiritually hearing” Jesus’s words in which he condemned/chastised the people [namely, the Pharisees and Sadducees and their “adherents”] whom “thought” they were living a righteous life, only to later find out that they were, in fact, living the FURTHEST thing from it (in Jesus’s eyes) is a VERY hard pill for most of us to swallow.

We then usually start to think amongst themselves: “well, if so and so was so severely chastised by Jesus in the bible, how is there hope for ANY of us then, especially ME?” But remember this: Jesus Christ died for our sins! He KNOWS that none of us are perfect and that we are going to have our “faults” and our “weaknesses”.

Heck, even his own 12 DISCIPLES, of all people, as well as many of the Pharisees and even some of the Old Testament prophets themselves were full of “faults” and “sins”. And that makes perfect sense in the light of Romans 3:23 which states: “For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God”.

Translation? NOBODY’S PERFECT and we’re ALL going to fall short from time to time, in our spiritual walk with Jesus. So just remember that. You’re not alone in this spiritual battle! Many Christians out there like you are going through the same exact thing! So remember that! You’re not the only one!

But exactly what can one DO when one feels OVERWHELMED by feelings of shame, guilt, fear and lack of faith? Well, first of all, please recognize that Jesus oftentimes uses this type of experience to “humble us”, to get us to repent of our sins, and to make us less self-righteous. Cause otherwise, we become like the Whore of Babylon who in Revelation 18:7 says in her heart:

How much she hath glorified herself, and lived deliciously, so much torment and sorrow give her: for she saith in her heart, I sit a queen, and am no widow, and shall see no sorrow”.

Have you ever met one of those Christians that are “arrogantly self-assured” that they’re in right standing with God? There’s a difference between FAITH and ARROGANT-SELF-ASSURANCE:

FAITH is when we simply KNOW that we’re living right by God/Jesus Christ and that Jesus Christ WILL return for us someday (his “faithful servants”) and that Jesus Christ CAN and WILL help us overcome ANY and ALL obstacles in our lives, trusting HIM and HIM ALONE for our salvation! But ARROGANT SELF-ASSURANCE is the proclamation that the Lord Jesus will spare us from his wrath and judgement someday because hey, we go to church every Sunday, are an outstanding member of the community, etc. That’s what I mean when I say there’s a DIFFERENCE between the two: faith and arrogant self-assurance. 

Nevertheless, when we get to the point in life where we just feel OVERWHELMED by life, and OVERWHELMED with the spiritual responsibilities OF our lives, and dealing with the feelings of doubt and/or self-doubt, fear, shame, guilt, and like nothing we ever do is “good enough” for the Lord, that’s when we’re in the “spiritual danger zone” or “in the red”, as I call it.

Pray to the Lord Jesus about it.

Say the following prayer:

“Lord, I’m overcome with feelings of fear, guilt, shame, lack of faith [or whatever it is you might be struggling with right now] and I need you to please help me overcome. Please be my rock, my shield, and my strength. Please help me overcome all the things I’m struggling with right now and help draw me closer to you. Please use the circumstances in my life to strengthen and renew my faith in you. Please teach me how to spiritually endure and also how to teach others how to spiritually endure. Please forgive me for all my sins and help me to live a more righteous life that’s fully dedicated to YOU, Lord! In Jesus’s name, Amen”. 

And remember that Satan and his demons stand as THE ACCUSER(S) of mankind. But Jesus Christ gives an eternal pardon from condemnation of sin to ALL those whom put their faith, trust, and love in HIM and him alone! When we are forgiven of our sins, that’s it, we are forgiven of them and they are remembered no more! So please remember that the next time you start beating yourself up over wrongs or “perceived wrongs” that you MAY’VE done or not done in the eyes of God. Whenever Satan tries to drag you down over your past, point to the book of Revelation and remind him of his future! 

Also please remember that WHEN you feel overpowered/overwhelmed by feelings of fear, guilt, shame and also feel like nothing you ever do for the Lord Jesus is “good enough”, you are being SPIRITUALLY PERSECUTED by Satan and his demons and that they WANT you to feel helpless and as though you are without hope, they WANT you to sin, they WANT you to feel sorry for yourself all the time, they WANT you to develop a lack of faith, they WANT you to neglect your spiritual relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ and to start catering to your OWN life’s needs, instead of God/Jesus’s spiritual needs.

However, when you ARE overcome with feelings of fear, guilt and shame, that’s usually a sign that you need to REPENT of something in your life. Remember that the Lord sometimes USES our feelings of fear, guilt and shame to draw us back closer TO him and to drive us to REPENT of our sins!

But alas, if you’ve already repented of all your sins and are in “good standing” with the Lord and are STILL overcome with feelings of guilt and shame of what you’ve done in the past or most recently, please remember that you’re already forgiven of those sins and Satan’s just TRYING to get you to doubt your being forgiven of those sins so he can further drag you down and KEEP YOU THERE! But don’t let him win! Remember the bible passage which states: “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved” [New Testament: Romans 10:13, Acts 2:21…Old Testament: Joel 2:32].

“I pray to the Lord Jesus that if you’re a poor, lost soul that’s OVERCOME with feelings of fear, shame and guilt, that Jesus Christ will deliver you and free you from such “bondage”, that your faith will be renewed & strengthened, that you will no longer spiritually faint or get weary for any reason (specifically, spiritual persecution, etc.) and that the Lord Jesus Christ will give you the necessary spiritual armour to endure and run the rest of the race of *spiritual endurance* and *spiritual long-suffering*, until he comes. May the Lord Jesus Christ bless you & keep you for eternity. Amen”.