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IMPORTANT: What Jesus WANTS For *Godly Relationships!*

For those who don’t yet know my testimony or my story, I’ll give a brief overview here:

I had met Jesus personally during a couple of near-death experiences (one at around 23 months of age and another at just 14 years old). And at age 19, I knew who Jesus was. I had a huge children’s illustrated bible at my disposal (shortly after near-death experience #1), as well as the “official” KJV version I took from a ski resort condo when I was 15.

But at age 19-20, I still had NO IDEA what a “Christian” even WAS, the full extent to WHAT Jesus had done for mankind on the cross, or about any of the “meanings” of the words (“grace”, “born again”, “salvation”, etc.) of what I was reading in the “official” version of the KJV bible I was reading. I was really struggling to understand what it all meant. Well, one day in the mail, I got a invitation to a play (put on by a church) called: “Heaven’s Gate and Hell’s Flames”.

At first, I didn’t want to go. I thought I’d feel like the odd one out compared to all the people who’d been going to church their whole lives! However, after some grappling with the Lord over it, (i.e. remember when Moses got nervous about being the spokesman of Israel?) I decided to bite the bullet and take a chance and go, anyways! Well, I’m glad I did! First of all, I guy I had gone to High-School with had played the part of one of the angels! So hey, atleast I knew SOMEONE there, right?

And after the play, they handed out some FREE literature (Specifically, a small, brand-new pocket-sized “God’s Word: New Testament & Psalms). They told me to read it, look over it and then call them if I had any questions about what I was reading. They also assigned to me something called a “prayer accountability partner”, even though I didn’t really know what that meant at the time. And even though I was grateful for the FREE play and FREE literature, I was still somewhat hesitant about “attending church”. I just felt OVERWHELMED!

So I didn’t end up becoming a member of that church. Instead, I thanked them for the free bible and begun to read that God’s Word translation from cover to cover at home, in my own free time. But what really got me were the very first introductory pages! They just explained things to me SO WELL! Plus they even put the most important things IN BOLD! I knew that Jesus had some wonderful things in store for me by having them give me that easy-to-understand version of the New Testament! It’s just exactly what I needed at that time!

And as I begin to read and pour over the pages, I FINALLY began to understand what all those “words” meant (i.e. “grace”, “born again”, “salvation”), about what Jesus did, about how we’re all sinners and about how ONLY Jesus can save us from our sins! And so once I felt I had a firm grasp and understanding on THAT God’s Word translation, I quickly decided I was then gonna read the “official” King James Version, cover to cover, no matter how long it took!

(Please keep in mind that I had NO job at this point, had broken up with my S.O. AND had gotten kicked out of college! I was living off of savings/credit cards at that point. So for 8 months straight, that’s how Jesus orchestrated that time in my life so that it was just me and Him at that time! And what a wonderful BLESSING that turned out to be! Jesus was giving me a break from EVERYTHING and EVERYONE so that I could PEACEFULLY learn more about HIM and HIS GOSPEL!)

I understood most of everything I had read and was “amazed” at all the “love stories” (Boaz and Ruth, Jacob and Rachel, Isaac and Rebekah) that I had read! And I was young and filled with promise! I thought: “Hey, if it could happen to these folks in the bible, it can happen to ME, too!” I had this idea or picture in my mind that I’d meet my spouse by the age of 25, have kids by 30, and have a house by 35! In fact, don’t we ALL have pre-conceived notions in our mind like that?

So even though I had the KNOWLEDGE of Jesus and his gospel by age 21, I didn’t quite yet have the FAITH in Jesus that’s required! And so, for many years afterwards, that LACK OF FAITH in Jesus (concerning my love-life and considering other areas of my life) did me some SERIOUS HARM!

In fact, I was “mad at Jesus” for not bringing me a spouse for such a long, long time! I’m ashamed to even type this across the page but my “thoughts” for a LONG time concerning my love-life were the following: Jesus, you bring EVERYONE ELSE a spouse but not ME! Why? What’s wrong with ME? What are you punishing ME for? What wrong have “I” done against thee? Why am “I” not so-called deserving of a spouse but yet, other people seemingly ARE? Those people don’t even worship you AT ALL and they got a spouse before me! Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Tell me WHY!!!!???” 

I ended up not only being angry and bitter for MANY YEARS towards a few people that had majorly hurt me in my life but I also later ended up in FOUR consecutive abusive relationships! (Note: I had gotten so tired of “waiting on God” at that particular point in my life that I decided to “take matters into my own hands”).

Though none of them were physically abusive (I atleast got lucky in THAT regard), they were all emotionally, psychologically, mentally and SPIRITUALLY ABUSIVE! They CUT AWAY at my self-esteem, made me doubt myself, somewhat made me doubt God/Jesus, tampered with my faith, got me feeling VERY hopeless and depressed and ALMOST completely RUINED ME as a Christian! 

I had SO MUCH HATE in my heart towards the individuals who hurt me. “How could they?” I thought: “Jesus, how could you ALLOW that to happen to me at the hands of these people? Don’t you care about me AT ALL, Jesus? I was in this bitter, bitter place of anger, hurt, resentment, restlessness and mental/emotional ANGUISH! I was TORMENTED by the angered hatred I felt for those those individuals!

Odd thing is, I didn’t even really WANT to hate those individuals but my PRIDE got in the way of that! Even when Jesus gently said to me in my spirit: Told ya so! You should’ve listened to me and done things MY way, instead of your OWN way”, I was STILL stubborn about it. “But you don’t understand, Lord! You don’t understand what it’s like to be ME!” And the Lord seemed to say to me in my spirit, in response: “I CREATED you! I know you better than you even know YOURSELF!” 

It wasn’t really until I was about 30 years old or so that Jesus began to “soften” my heart towards the individuals who had hurt me and I began to see how my hate and resentment was EATING AWAY AT ME ON THE INSIDE! The Holy Spirit even revealed to me that my “hate” was eating away at MY SOUL! Wow! What a powerful, convicting description!

Eventually, I surrendered all that hurt, anger, fear, resentment to Jesus. I prayed: “Jesus, I don’t WANT to hate or resent anymore, it’s already taken SO MUCH from me! I WANT to be able to FORGIVE, so please HELP ME to FORGIVE and MOVE ON, as I know I can’t do it alone……only WITH your divine help, Lord!

And ya know what? Jesus IS faithful and true! He DID help me to forgive them. He pointed out SEVERAL things to me. First of all, he informed me that the people who hurt me were themselves hurting on the inside. Secondly, they didn’t even fully consciously realize how much they had hurt me. Thirdly, Jesus wanted me to know that it wasn’t my fault and that their OWN healing would ALSO someday come about BY my forgiving them! Wow! Such powerful words of wisdom!

And AS I forgave them [Jesus had me starting out by writing “forgiveness letters” to each person who had hurt me – though I had never hand-delivered the letters to them personally], I felt SO MUCH BAGGAGE lift OFF of me and my SPIRIT! I felt FREE for the first time in a VERY long time! My SOUL felt FREE! I felt PEACE! I felt LOVE! I felt JOY! I felt CONTENTMENT!

I no longer had “heart palpitations” or “anxiety attacks!” It was like a HUGE ANCHOR had been LIFTED off of me! I no longer felt “weighed down” by anger and hate! In fact, I was the happiest I had ever been! In fact, people started to notice. The relationships with the people who had hurt me began to DRASTICALLY improve! It was nothing short of a MIRACLE! (This was when I was around age 34 or so, I believe?)

However, even at 34, there was still alot of “spiritual work” to be done! Because at THAT point in my life, I STILL had no idea about the TRUTH about church history, the Judeo roots of Christianity, etc. I would learn all of that later (like, age 36 or so). It’s funny how the Lord reveals things to me in “stages”. Sometimes, I wish he’d reveal things to me all at once, but that’s a different post for a different day! 😉 Jesus has also (in the last several months) helped me to soften my heart towards HIMSELF, concerning certain things in my life! 

Okay, now fast forward to today. Even though I’ve been a Christian for about 20 years now, I’ve only most recently learned what Jesus expects for a GODLY RELATIONSHIP (be it a relationship, a friendship, a marriage, etc.) And what I learned in the series just BLEW ME AWAY! Wow! How had I not ever seen this before? And then I got to thinking. How many OTHERS out there have not seen this before? Probably SEVERAL

I’ve most recently viewed an 8-part series and a powerful one-hour+ sermon on the matter. And ALL of them were eye-opening! And ALL of them ask the same questions: “Am I seeking a spouse with the RIGHT spiritual mind, heart and attitude before God? If not, why? If so, is it GOD’S time for me to have a spouse yet? If not, am I willing to wait on God instead of giving in to my own selfish desires? And if already married, am I bringing Christ INTO the marriage?” 

I will embed all the videos down below. [NOTE: PLEASE GET OUT A PEN AND PAPER AND TAKE LOTS OF NOTES!!!!!] I pray and hope that these will help you and enlighten you as much as they helped and enlightened ME! 😉 The first video is entitled “5 Keys To Identifying Your SoulMate” by Toure Roberts in L.A. and the next SEVERAL videos are the 8-PART series by Michael Todd from Transformation Church in Tulsa, Oklahoma!

GENE-EDITING & IVF, ETC. ARE AN ABOMINATION, PART B

There’s most recently been SEVERAL news articles about “crispr”, the new gene-editing mechanism that’s supposedly supposed to be the “cure-all” for ALL diseases & ailments (such as sickle cell anemia, celiac disease, Etc.)

However, behind “crispr” is a MUCH DARKER STORY….

First of all, crispr is a technique that “cuts and pastes genes” in the genome, in order to CORRECT genes that carry Sickle Cell Anemia, celiac disease, etc. But when the ENTIRE GENOME is inspected, scientists are now seeing a completely DIFFERENT PICTURE!

“Although CRISPR can initiate gene corrections, it can just as easily cause hundreds of unintended and possibly harmful mutations into the genome”, claims a most recent news article @ http://wallstreetpit.com/113548-crispr-dangerous-side-effect-unwanted-mutations/

It can just as easily cause hundreds of UNINTENDED and possibly HARMFUL mutations”. Listen to those words, folks! For it seems even the “science world” is having trouble FULLY ADMITTING to themselves (or even ACKNOWLEDGING) that messing with DNA on ANY LEVEL is nothing short but asking for long-term trouble/dangerous mutations & side effects, as well as (rather they realize it or not) inciting the WRATH OF GOD!

Why? Because it messes with GOD’S NATURAL DNA DESIGN! (How would YOU like it for example if you self-created an elaborate piece of artwork, only to have that very artwork hop off the page and then rearrange itself in a form that YOU found questionable? And furthermore, what if THE WAY in which your created artwork chose to rearrange itself actually HARMED it, in the long run? What if it was the case that your artwork could ONLY be arranged ONE certain way and to have it arranged any OTHER way would be harmful to it, for it would make itself self-destruct?)

But then again, why should we all be surprised? The very FIRST time that “gene-editing” was mentioned in the bible was during the times of Noah in the Old Testament. There was GREAT EVIL upon the Earth in those days. The FALLEN angels had sex with human females and BORE CHILDREN by them! And the result of those “ungodly unions” was EVIL GIANTS (whom the bible calls the Nephilim!)

In fact, anywhere you turn, (rather in the bible OR in today’s world), you will begin to slowly notice that “gene-editing” is BAD and that nearly ALL mutations are “BAD!” Even most geneticists themselves know this, but yet, many of them won’t speak out over it DUE to the fear of the loss of their “careers!” (I’m SERIOUS ON THIS, FOLKS!)

[[[It is also why we know that the theory of “Evolution” is FALSE…..BECAUSE MUTATIONS (AS A WHOLE) ARE BAD! Now, don’t me wrong here, there’s a DIFFERENCE between a mutation and a “slight variation” over a generation of species. There’s ALWAYS going to be slight variations within a species over a set amount of time. However, that STILL doesn’t change the fact that mutations (as a whole) are BAD!]]

Now……..let us go back to the very NAME of the most recent “gene-editing technique”….CRISPR. Interesting name……..Especially considering that IN the lake of fire, those consigned to it will ETERNALLY BURN TO A “CRISP”.

So……the gene-editing technique’s NAME (Crispr) is somewhat of a BIBLICALLY INTERESTING NAME…….Was it named that way ON PURPOSE in order to MOCK God’s Almighty Wrath? Or was it named that for some other reason? We may never know, folks. Nevertheless, the name Crispr is VERY, VERY TELLING, biblically-speaking, like I said…….

Also as well: When people think MARK OF THE BEAST, they think of a physical mark or tattoo that’s placed on/in the right hand or forehead. But it goes much deeper than that, folks! For I surmise that the MARK OF THE BEAST also has to do with GENE-EDITING! For WHEN a person takes the Mark of the Beast (in my humble spiritual opinion), it also VERY likely means that a person’s physical AND spiritual DNA/genes WILL be edited/permanently changed! That’s SCARY, folks!

And besides, if “gene-editing” back in ancient biblical times created “ungodly hybrids”, what will the CURRENT rounds of “gene-editing” create in humans? I’m not totally sure I want to find out, folks!

This also gets me thinking about IVF, “surrogacy” and “test tube babies”. There’s thousands of “frozen embryos” sitting in labs all across the world. This (atleast to ME, anyways) seems very, VERY ungodly and NOT what Jesus Christ intended when he created humankind! Not to mention that for SOME embryos to live, OTHERS must be “discarded” and DIE!

So in a sense, it’s kind’ve like “playing God”, on the part of the IVF doctors. The “embryos” have no names in IVF and are “created and destroyed, at will”. And not only that, but it also “cheapens” the “natural procreation” in a “marital relationship”. Plus, don’t even get me started on how IVF doctors try to decide “which” embryos will be discarded…..either the ones that have so-called “defects” or the ones that are closest within reach of their “potassium chloride killing needle!”

But further yet, it has the potential to go even deeper! Alot of “secret testing” is done today, in the name of “science”, these days. So how do we really know that no form of “Crispr” is now being used on test tube babies, etc? Soliders during the time of the Vietnam War had no idea that Agent Orange was also being used on them in the name of “science”, for example!

But one thing’s for sure. If a couple cannot conceive, then doesn’t it seem very likely that it is NOT the Lord Jesus Christ’s will for that couple to have children – atleast at that current particular point in time or perhaps AT ALL? (Or perhaps the Lord is “secretly planning” to perform what’s called a “natural procreation miracle” in that couple’s life later at some point?) Therefore, why try to FORCE it? Is using IVF/surrogacy (rather the producer or recipient of) NOT a form of “playing God?” Just like “gene-editing” is? Think about it, folks!

Many “Christians” see nothing wrong with IVF, surrogacy and/or “gene-editing”. In fact, many even try to “justify” it. But in the end, Jesus Christ will be the judge. As I sit here pondering what Jesus’s will on these things would be, this is what comes to my mind:

I picture Jesus coming INTO an IVF, surrogacy or “gene-editing” laboratory/clinic. And I picture that his heart is VERY GRIEVED over a). all the IVF “embryos” that are “discarded” b). that IVF/surrogacy/neo-natal gene editing makes babies a “COMMODITY” c). that IVF and/or gene-editing is a form of NOT trusting him to heal and/or create life and that d). “gene-editing” being a personal slap in His Face, since it messes with HIS NATURAL (DNA) DESIGN!

I can then mentally picture Jesus sadly shaking his head in disbelief and asking those people the same types of questions that Elkanah asked his wife Hannah in 1 Samuel 1:8 “Then said Elkanah her husband to her, Hannah, why weepest thou? and why eatest thou not? and why is thy heart grieved? am not I better to thee than ten sons?”

In other words, I can picture Jesus being hurt EMOTIONALLY, when people don’t trust him enough for a miracle and/or when they’re not satisfied with what Jesus HAS ALREADY GIVEN THEM, so far in life……..be it a successful booming business, a great talent or hobby that most people don’t have, an education, a loving/wonderful spouse, etc.

[Note: Some mothers/IVF parents might even go so far as to say “Jesus” appeared to them in a dream and said that IVF was fine and dandy. But they seriously have to ask themselves just what type of “Jesus’ would actually APPROVE of such things? Would the Jesus Christ of ancient biblical times have EVER approved of IVF techniques (had they existed back then) where BABIES BECAME A $$$$ COMMODITY and where some babies got to live, while others had to DIE? Me thinks not!]

That’s essentially what “gene-editing” really IS……..it’s like personally saying to Jesus, “I’m sorry Jesus but I/WE can do better!” Just like IVF/surrogacy is like stubbornly saying, “I’m sorry Jesus but I’M/WE’RE gonna have children rather you like it or not!” In a small way, it’s like “becoming one’s own god!” Why? Because A) It thwarts God’s natural procreation design and B) it makes “babies” a COMMODITY! And not only that but it is considered (for a man, anyways) “spilling one’s seed” [OUTSIDE the natural womb of a wife!]

And that’s INTERESTING……..considering that in Genesis 38, verses 8-10, we read about a guy by the name of Onan. His brother had just died. And his brother & sister-in-law had had no children. And back in ancient Jewish biblical times, the dead husband’s brother was expected to marry his sister-in-law and have children by her, in order to carry on the family name. Only, the children that resulted would not be “his” but would instead be considered his “dead brother’s”, as the following passage indicates:

“And Judah said unto Onan, Go in unto thy brother’s wife, and marry her, and raise up seed to thy brother. And Onan knew that the seed should not be his; and it came to pass, when he went in unto his brother’s wife, that he spilled it on the ground, lest that he should give seed to his brother. And the thing which he did displeased the Lord: wherefore he slew him also”.

Translation? Onan spilled his semen on the ground [OUTSIDE of his sister-in-law-turned-wife’s womb] since he didn’t want to have children by her, for his dead brother! (And the Lord was SO DISPLEASED with Onan that he KILLED HIM OUTRIGHT!) Why? Because Onan DISREGARDED the Lord’s will for NATURALLY-CREATED CHILDREN **FOR** HIS DEAD BROTHER’S PROGENY/FAMILY LINE OF INHERITANCE!

Therefore, in TODAY’S time, IVF/surrogacy is basically TODAY’S MEN doing the same thing. BIBLICALLY SPEAKING, they are “spilling their seed” like Onan once did, back in ancient biblical times. [Rather or not a child is eventually created using surrogacy/IVF is besides the point……The POINT is that “spilling one’s seed outside the womb” (for ANY reason) is apparently an abomination onto to the Lord!] And so BECAUSE of that, the Lord KILLED Onan…..so should IVF/surrogacy (i.e. unnatural pregnancy) REALLY be a thing that today’s men & women should be SPIRITUALLY trifling with?

Now……don’t get me wrong, here……The children of all “successful IVF/surrogacy births” can’t help how they were conceived & are considered “innocent” in all of this. Cause afterall, they can’t help how they were conceived. However, the parents of IVF children must think long & hard rather IVF/surrogacy had been the personal will of Jesus or not. Cause otherwise, if they go through their whole entire LIVES thinking it WAS the will of Jesus (when it actually might not’ve been?)

Truth is, we are ALL (including me) gonna be standing in front of the mighty Eternal Judgement Seat of Jesus Christ someday. And we’re ALL (including me) gonna be judged for every word, thought, deed & action. That’s WHY it’s ever-so-pertinent that we should all make absolutely 100% SURE that something is or was Jesus’s will for our lives, instead of just “assuming”…..

Because folks…..if we simply “assume” something was/is the Lord Jesus’s will for our lives (and it never really was but we had never actually taken the time to FULLY spiritually investigate if it was his will or not?) None of us would ever want to be on the WRONG side of Jesus’s will, correct? Therefore, ALWAYS ask & pray for confirmation, NEVER ASSUME! And that doesn’t JUST go for IVF/etc., that can go for ANYTHING (a college major, a MAJOR move across the country, acceptance of a certain job offer, starting a new business or not, etc.)

But when it COMES to IVF/etc., ask your SOUL the following question, in closing: “Would Jesus Christ EVER ‘OK’ “medical techniques and/or scientific *experiments* that ALTERED His NATURAL DNA design in ANY type of way and that made babies made in his own image a COMMODITY to be bought and sold?”

Therefore, I pray that if there’s anything holding you – dear readers – (or even myself) back from the Lord Jesus Christ and/or His Divine Will, that He will swiftly reveal it to you/me & also that you/I will repent of it – SWIFTLY! For tomorrow is never guaranteed!

P.S.: In the very near future, we will start to see more and more headlines such as the following that try to make “gene-editing/DNA modification” seem like a GOOD THING, so BEWARE, folks! Don’t let the “positive spin” on their articles fool you (EVEN WHEN IT COMES FROM A SEEMINGLY “CONSERVATIVE WEBSITE(S)“):

1). http://www.foxnews.com/health/2017/09/29/gene-editing-could-make-wheat-bread-safe-for-celiacs.html

2). https://futurism.com/scientists-just-used-gene-editing-to-remove-a-fatal-blood-disorder-from-human-embryos/

“Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter” – Isaiah 5:20